tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-83601627712777820702024-03-04T22:37:09.275-08:00Don't Say The "D Word"Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12539414645333347463noreply@blogger.comBlogger9125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8360162771277782070.post-11768775380661834702014-01-01T11:47:00.001-08:002014-01-01T11:47:35.933-08:00New Year-New Me? <span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Happy New Year's all! I haven't updated in so long. Not much has changed. I struggled through 2013 in regards to losing weight and getting healthy. I had a lot of inspiration though, and by starting with a little research and some baby steps, I think I am ready to be successful with this. I feel like a broken record, but if I keep telling myself I can do it, I can do it. Right?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br />It's so cliche-New Year, new me! Everyone has those resolutions they stick with for a month out of the entire year. Or they don't even try at all. I am going to be 36 years old this year. I am not getting any younger. I need to do this while I still can.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br />I know I shouldn't focus on the scale, but for now I am going to see where the numbers take me. I have set little goals for myself, rather than one large goal.</span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">By March 4, 2014 (mine and my husband's anniversary)- Lose 15 pounds</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">By June 3, 2014 (my birthday)- Lose 20 pounds for a total weight loss of 35 pounds in 6 months.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">By September 1, 2014 (no special date here, just random)-Lose 15 pounds for a total of 50 pounds lost in 9 months.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">By December 25, 2014 (Christmas!)- Lose the last 8 pounds for a total weight loss of 58 pounds.</span></li>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">At this time, on New Year's day, I weigh 188 pounds. I think 130 is a nice number to work towards.<br />Thank you so much to <a href="http://www.imanwoods.com/">Iman Woods</a> for inspiring me so much this year. May the year 2014 be a wonderful year full of milestones and memories!<br />Until next time my lovelies... </span><br />
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12539414645333347463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8360162771277782070.post-50238214979871007352013-03-20T19:41:00.001-07:002013-03-20T19:41:27.380-07:00What Will it Take?Hi all! I am so very sorry I haven't updated in forever. I've been busy with work mostly. Work, and living in denial. Being on this "D" word is rough! I have this pattern. I can do well for about a week and then I say screw it and go back to my old habits. I do have to give myself credit, I've been snacking on healthier foods and drinking more water. But, right now I have PMS and.....<br />
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So, here is the dilemma I face every day. I suck at this. The only way I can seem to lose a good amount of weight is if I am sick. Earlier this month the fam came down with that horrible stomach bug. I threw up on and off for 12 hours and couldn't eat right for 3 days. Within that three days I lost 5 pounds. I was finally under 190! I weighed in at 189 and was so thrilled. In true Kelli fashion, that was short lived. I gained 4 pounds back. I've been able to stay around 193, which is nice but I need to lose this weight. I'd be ok if I just lost 50 pounds. Or even 25. Just something to show I am not a complete disappointment.<br />
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Well, because I need to tell SOMEONE. I need to hold myself accountable here. The whole point of this blog was to hold myself accountable. I just don't know what it will take at this point to get my brain to work normally. I mean, as normal as can be for me. It is all mental. I know this. It needs to change.<br />
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I will try to keep this blog updated more. I need to figure out how to get over this rough patch. And by patch I mean many years of being a fat-ass. I may need professional help here.....Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12539414645333347463noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8360162771277782070.post-91868486883356214382012-11-26T09:36:00.002-08:002012-11-26T09:36:28.769-08:00Danica's Daily Giveaway<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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One of my favorite sites, Danica's Daily, is having a great giveaway right now. It is for the Weight Watchers Active Link, which is a neat little gadget that I personally would LOVE to get my hands on. That is not all! With the Active Link, a lucky winner will get $60 to pay for the first year subscription. Not too shabby. Head on over and check it out.<br />
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Well, it's that time of the year again. TIME FOR ME TO GET SOME CANDY! I mean, time for my kids to get some candy (and give me a piece or two... or ten.) Besides Christmas, this is my favorite holiday. Or, it used to be. See, the problem is I am supposed to be on this "healthy lifestyle kick." Surely it wouldn't do much harm to have a piece of candy right? If I eat two, that's ok, I can just exercise tomorrow. Right? If by some chance I end up eating more than two pieces, no worries. An extra 30 minutes of cardio. RIGHT?!<br /><br />This is how I am. Trying to find excuses to eat junk. It doesn't help that my girly time is supposed to be coming and I NEED chocolate. If you are reading this, and you are a woman, surely you can understand my frustrations!<br /><br />As long as the weather cooperates we will be taking the kids out to do some trick or treating. We love going out, house to house, seeing what goodies we can get. It's also nice to see all the costumes and houses that actually take the time to decorate. I know the economy is hard right now, but can't you at least put out a carved pumpkin or two? It makes the kids happy.<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12539414645333347463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8360162771277782070.post-23531633694904906912012-10-26T16:11:00.000-07:002012-10-30T17:15:04.834-07:00Say Hi To Felica!<br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Felica is my first guest blogger! She runs a small business from home, crocheting custom hats and blankets. She is also going through a weight loss journey, with many ups and downs. She has decided to share her story:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">All of my life I've been skinny. Well, not to the media standards, but to my own. I never weighed over 145 pounds until 2 years ago. I am now sitting at 178.4 pounds, the last time I was weighed. I always used to obsess about how overweight I was at 145 pounds and thought that I was fat and it never occurred to me that I wasn't overweight until I actually was.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I got pregnant in the summer of 2010 and ended up miscarrying which sent me into a quick descent into depression and making my bipolar and anxiety skyrocket. I went from being a happy, bubbly girl, to being a depressed woman who could hardly get out of bed. This did not effect my weight in any way.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">When I finally spiraled out of control into feeling suicidal, my fiance, now husband, helped get me into counseling and on the medications that I needed to start feeling at least somewhat normal again. Unfortunately, one of those medications, Seroquel made me put on quite a few extra pounds. I went from being 145 to 180 pounds.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">This started to depress me even more when I saw the scales weighing in at 180 pounds. I hadn't even noticed myself gaining all of the weight that I had gained until I went to the doctor and she weighed me. The shock I felt at being ‘heavy’ was unexplainable. I felt disgusted with myself over letting my body become out of control, although I wasn't the only one to blame for my weight gain.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I went off of the dreaded medication a few months ago and found myself losing weight slowly. I managed to find myself around 168 pounds and was thrilled. Most of this weight loss was because I had gotten sick with some kind of stomach inflammation that caused me to vomit up almost everything that I had eaten.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Now that I’m not sick, I've started to put the weight back on. I’m back up to 178 pounds. I’m once again disgusted with my body, and am not happy that I let myself gain the weight back. I’m obsessed with losing the weight again and it’s becoming unhealthy for me.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I've cut out almost all of the sugar out of my diet, which is a start for me because Coke is my weakness. I would drink it almost every day, ALL DAY long. Now, I’m replacing a can of Coke with a cup of black coffee. I still get the caffeine intake that I would normally get, which I do need to start cutting out of my diet also, but I’m not getting nearly as much sugar and other unhealthy things from the soft drinks.</span><br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12539414645333347463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8360162771277782070.post-29990400934498132582012-10-24T10:43:00.001-07:002012-10-26T16:30:06.034-07:00Do You Want To Be A Guest Blogger?<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Are you going through a weight loss journey of your own? Do you want to make healthier lifestyle choices, but need more motivation? I would love to add you on as a guest blogger! Share your story with others, and help motivate the readers, as well as yourself. You can contact me privately at <a href="mailto:(kelshafer@yahoo.com)">my email</a></span> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12539414645333347463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8360162771277782070.post-46925604057686461992012-10-21T14:41:00.000-07:002012-10-24T10:44:08.964-07:00My Weight Roller Coaster<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I n</span><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">ever really struggled with my weight till I got out of high school. When I started dating my husband I weighed 118 pounds. I had a nice body with curves in all the right places. Once I got out of school though, it was all up hill from there. I started gaining weight slowly over the years. I was eating like shit and I was getting lazier by the day. I got pregnant for our first son in 2003, and at that point in time I weighed 150. So, between the months after high school, which was in 1996, and 2003 I gained 32 pounds.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">During that first pregnancy, I ate whatever I wanted, when I wanted. The day Mikey was born, I weighed 220 pounds. Yep. I gained 70 pounds that pregnancy. That would be the highest I ever was in my life, even to this day.I was so huge, and I am a little ashamed of myself in my pictures from in the hospital. It was like a whale laying in the bed, snuggling her new baby. I don't look "normal" when I am overweight. I don't carry weight well.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">That year after Mikey was born, I spent more time walking and less time eating so much. I lost 60 pounds in a year, only to find out that I was pregnant again with our second son Nathan. I gained around 45 pounds with him, lost a few pounds after his birth but found myself pregnant AGAIN when he was 7 months old. During my pregnancy with Dylan, I gained about 35-40 pounds. Lost a little bit, moved to a new house, lost a little more and got down to 175 pounds. No sooner do I lose the weight and I had the pleasure of finding myself pregnant again. This all makes me laugh in a way, because my husband and I tried for kids for 6 years before we even had our first. Then they kept coming..</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Needless to say, I had my tubes tied after Benjamin. I gained 30-35 pounds with him but I only lost about 15 pounds of pregnancy weight. I have been struggling on and off for the last 4 years between 188 pounds and 203 pounds. I usually stay at exactly 195.6 pounds. Which is where I am at now.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Tomorrow is Monday and I have all the food I need to be successful in this lifestyle change adventure. Fresh fruits, vegetables, lean meats... Now I just need to drink more water. I have always had a problem with drinking enough. I also need to sleep more and definitely exercise. I have failed so much over the last 4 years that I am honestly afraid of failing again. But I just can't! It is so hard, because I obsess about bad foods when I am not eating them. I feel like I am depriving myself, even though I am not.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I also have a fear of sorts towards exercise. I have lived with anxiety/panic disorder, depression, mild OCD and paranoia my entire life. It is more controlled now, but I still fear I will exercise too much and have a heart attack. Irrational I know. But it is a serious fear. Though part of me knows if I keep remaining obese, I have an even greater chance of having heart issues.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">So, I NEED to do something. I am tired of not being sexy, and dealing with health issues that might be cured with weight loss. I am tired of being uncomfortable in certain clothes. I am tired of being embarrassed of myself and having to do the whole "fat girl angle" in some of my pictures. I want to be healthy and happy, and call me crazy, but I want to be sexy! I want to be that woman that people look at and say "WOW she has lost a lot of weight and looks great!" I want to be admired and desired and I want to be an inspiration instead of feeling like a disappointment. So... here it goes. Wish me luck!</span><br />
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2009- I was 188 pounds<br />
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Summer of 2012-195.6 pounds<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12539414645333347463noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8360162771277782070.post-88887252194577856762012-10-19T18:07:00.000-07:002012-10-24T10:44:22.893-07:00Where It All Started<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Where It All Started-</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Welcome to my blog. I decided to start this as motivation for myself during my journey, and ultimately my struggles, with weight loss. I really hate to call it a "diet" because it sounds so unpleasant. Plus, it has the word die in it, and that just can't be good. Don't say the "D Word"!! So, I shall refer to this as a lifestyle change.<br /><br />I was a relatively normal sized baby. I weighed 7 pounds 7 ounces at birth. I gained a bit of chub through the years but I was never really what anyone would call "overweight." I spent a lot of time at my grandmother and grandfathers home, and I will admit I was spoiled. I got whatever I wanted and was able to eat whatever I wanted. Grandma usually cooked fairly healthy meals but we had the occasional fast food, cookies, fudge (omg, I miss grandma's fudge!) and potato chips. Back then, I didn't have to worry about being fat. I was a kid. I worked off the fat with riding my bike or taking long walks. I also loved to dance. I have been singing and dancing since I could speak and move my legs. I would dance with friends, dance by myself, and I was even in a dance class for a while. I was lazy at times, but I was pretty active as well. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">At home we were fed decent meals most of the time, but I would still grab snacks when I didn't really need one. I wasn't an emotional eater. I didn't eat when I was depressed, or when I was happy. But I did eat when I was bored. It just seemed like eating was always on my mind. Cookies, cakes and fudge were a big deal around the holidays. We weren't the type of family that celebrated with food though. My mother's side of the family wasn't really obese, but some were overweight. I had overweight and obese relatives on my father's side.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">When I was going to therapy, my therapist and I tried to get to the root of why I have this obsession with food. Can't quite figure that out. I would eat fruits and vegetables and healthy foods, but I would always seem to overeat. I wasn't great about portion control unless someone was getting my food for me. Then, there was that pesky thing that is called a "sweet tooth." I had one of those. A very large one of those. I've loved chocolate and chips and baked goods since I was born.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">With this blog I hope to make myself more accountable for what I eat and how much I exercise. I've tried so many times in the last 3 years, and I keep failing. I am not a child anymore, and there isn't any excuse I can give as to why I am still 70 pounds overweight. I am 5'3 and as of today, I weigh 195.6 pounds. </span></div>
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